These past few days, I keep feeling empty, in my heart. Is it because of the sins I've committed before? I don't know why but everything seems to be gloomy and I can't make sense of any of it. Has the time come?
One of my friend just broke up with her boyfriend. There's no one to be blamed because it is none of their fault. The girl just wanna change. Change for better. A change to gain the eternal love from Allah. She said that she really need that change. She don't want to commit any sin anymore. There will never be term like best friend between a boy and a girl. The more they think about each other, the more guilty she felt. That's the reason of the break up.
This situation really makes me think deeply and thoughtfully today. I don't know how to put it in words but my friend's decision did leave an impact to my heart. I wanna change. I wanna change into a better person. The world is getting to its end. Everyone will soon die. But I'm scared that I can't commit to the changes.. :(
I wish I could be like her. I wish I am brave enough to make such choices.
Dear Allah, please lead me to the right path. Show me the way to gain your love and spare me a place in your heaven. Amin..
